Defiance

I've only cried a few tears in my life.
Some of them at movies,
Most of them at you.
There were nights I didn't know if I could stop.

That's what tells me that this is real.
No matter how ridiculous, it's real.
It's real and you know what?
It's mine.

Because
I guess now you think I'm a stupid fool.
And maybe you can't believe you ever fell for me.
Maybe you never did.
Maybe it's all been lies.
But this is real:
I love you.

Maybe I don't dare tell you so.
Maybe you'll show this to your friends
Maybe you'll read every word to your family
And maybe you'll all have a good laugh.
Maybe you're nothing I ever thought you were.
But this is still true:
I love you, I love you, I love you.

I can say it.
Because love isn't something between us,
It's inside us.
And the love that I gave to you
Is still mine to keep.
What you do or what you become
Can't change it.

So spit on this paper,
Mock my heart,
Turn your shoulder.
I'm laughing in your face
because I love you.